Wishful Thinking

If I could choose to eat anything right now it would be an unusual feast from childhood past:

 

Lechon kawali with achara, steamy fragrant rice,

pako (fern) salad,

dabong (bamboo shoots) simmered in coconut milk with dimod-ot na buyad (dried anchovies)

 

 

 

Nokos na buyad and danggit too. With sawsawan na may sili.

 

 

and chase down with fresh Guyabano juice. That milky, frothy, sweet, life changing juice that I have missed so much.

If I could choose where to be right now – I’d like to be back in my old hometown on a lunch date with my whole family at the Amat round table – eating and sharing stories as always. Food will be abundant and laughters even more so. The only difference will be that Rich will be there. He’d be surprised how much we gobble and guffaw!

If I could read one book or part of a book over and over today, I’d choose to read THE PSALM OF DAVID and the PSALM OF NEPHI (2 Nephi 3-5)Both have been loyal comforting companions in times of distress.

 

 

If I could go back to my childhood and choose to do something– I’d try and pay more attention to Practical Arts. Tatting, Crochet and Cross-stitch has eluded my interest in the past but now I wish I was more diligent so as to make my present life more Martha Stewart’ish.

 

If I could meet a famous person- I’d really like to meet Oprah in a casual situation where both of us don’t have to dress for the occasion and just be ourselves. There has to be food too. I'd tell her I saved and got my Phillip Stein watch because of her. I know we’d click. ♥☀☺

 

Lately I’ve been very picky with people esp. so-called friends and I shy away when I find a little something that bugs me. I used to hang on and just let them be, but not anymore now. I very rarely invite friends in FACEBOOK and when I’m invited, I am very careful in accepting. I’m not celebrating being snob but rather being true to myself.☮☺

This feeling has been made known to me just after both my parents passed away. It is as if 2 of the most important people in my life is gone and only a chosen few can stay. It doesn’t really matter now, whether I have 10 or a hundred – the ten are chosen.

If I could change where I live, I'd still live in Melbourne but I would like to have a bigger kitchen where I can cook a storm anytime I want. I would like a longer hard wood table to gather around for meals. I also would like a small courtyard with lemon, calamansi, mansanitas, lomboy and chico. If that is too much to ask, a small citrus tree on a big terracotta pot will do.
 

If I could only use one pair of shoes, it’d be my black Ugg boots. It is so comfortable that once I used it to a conference on a 38 degree celcius day. It did not make my feet sweat but the rest of my body was hot :-) 2^nd choice would be a toss between my black fitflop and my pink crocs slip ons.

 

If I could only use one bag I’d use my good ol’ LV Speedy 35. It has been with me for a long time now and though I used super glue to attach the ripped leather zipper pull, it still looked beautiful and makes me happy. It is also roomy so I can put my life in it:) 2^nd choice, 1st runner-up would be my Guess Messenger man purse. It has travelled with me everywhere. But it is heavier than Speedy so it is not the first choice.

 

 

If I could turn back time I would like to take my Mama and Papa to a trip to the places where Rich and I have gone. Mama would be gushing and raving about the flora and fauna of Australia. She’d love the Floriade and other flower shows. If she complains of much walking I’d force her to sit on a wheelchair and push her by myself everywhere we go. I would let her nip a bud or two to carry home to plant. Papa would be impressed of Europe and also of Australia and how the country is run. He was a man ahead of his time. His ideas as a leader then, are only slowly implemented now. He is the gauge on how I measure integrity and goodness in a man. He is true to himself, no pretensions and no justifications of how he lived his life. He is a man God is proud to call His son.

 

We'd take lots and lots of photos, that way when goodbye comes, it wouldn't be as sad.

If I could listen to just one album I would choose Adele 21. Though happy with my life, I have for these past few months survived on her melancholic, angsty notes and I like it.

 

 

If I could watch just one movie, I would choose one that Richard picks because the only way for me to sit tight on a movie is when he is next to me, holding my hand while I eat butter popcorn, BreadTop pork miniburgers and sip Boost Blueberry Blast. Like our forth nightly date in the cinemas and nightly dates at home with our fave TV shows.

If I could freeze a certain moment- that’d be when we were in Lanuza with Mama, Ding and Rich just after Papa passed away. But I would really like Papa and Mano Longkoy to be there too. I would really like the whole family to be there. Banocky, Kingay and his girls. I could smell the burning dried leaves and hear the crickets. I can almost see the fireflies too. Yes I'd really like that. ☀☺✈♥

If I could only write a book on my past with the cast all complete I would. But now I can only rely on little glimpses of memory. Memories that my brain may forget in time. I hope that God in His infinite wisdom will make me remember all of this in my heart forever.
 

Then when the final reunion will come, in that place of no goodbyes – we can all regale each other on what we have missed the whole time we were apart.

Then like the usual we’d laugh, hug and of course eat. 

I am sure eating is allowed in Heaven.